I KNOW I DON'T UPDATE. ADVANCED HIGHER MODERN STUDIES IS GONNA BE THE DEATH OF ME, SO I'LL SEE YOU ALL ON THE OTHER SIDE!

but this song seems to explain it. I hate emotions by the way, it's almost like I am human.

Three sleepless nights
This isn't how its supposed to be.
But you are so good at
taking your time to get back to me.

I will wait for you forever,
if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you
but you changed me.

It doesn't feel right,
holding someone else's hand.
Together on phone line,
and living at two opposite ends.

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But your head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not (it’s not) so easy for me
you’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.

And I thought that you said
things were improving.
These laces are untied,
but my feet are still walking away.

I've got my Advanced Higher Modern Studies prelim tomorrow, and instead of studying, I've been listening to The Beatles since 12pm, and will probably listen to them into the night. I'm just sitting obsessing over BoIz too, oh cruel world! Hello livejournal, what's shaking?

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I'm just having another one of those days where I spontaniously start to cry for no reason. I feel like the people who are my life, have another life. Debbie cancelled on me today, or more like I cancelled on her, well we cancelled on each other because of me. I feel quite gutted now because I know now last night would've been okay if I had only stayed, but I just had to freak out and go home.

I don't really wanna open up any more. I'm listening alot to Chiodos now, I wish I stayed and saw them.

Ah well, no regrets.

edit: also i just had some soup and i fucking nearly swallowed a bit of wood that was in it. :@